It’s an Incredibly Lonely World
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College move-in was three days ago. Right now, it feels like an incredibly lonely world.
We have many opportunities to meet new people—our schedules are packed with back-to-back events—but even then, I still feel alone. I find myself listening to Taylor Swift to feel connected to my friends in Boise, recalling the books my girlfriend talked about, and looking at the same buildings my parents were in awe of.
These are all things that sort of bind me to the past. What was seems more preferable than what is. But I know if I look for too long, I might get stuck there.
I keep telling myself: Life has its ups and downs. It’ll get better. You won’t find your best friends in five days. You’re not the only one going through this.
Yet I still can’t help but wonder if I won’t find what I had in high school. If I made the right decision in coming here. If I should be different.
Because it doesn’t seem hard for everyone.
But for now, I’ll remain optimistic because “hope” is the thing with feathers and sings the tune without words and never stops at all.
